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Results Day

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resultsSo today was GCSE results day for many including my first born.  It has been full of mixed emotions to say the least.  I didn’t really know what to expect when he opened his envelope, and I’m not sure if he did either.  O’s facial expressions are hard to read at the best of times, a typical ASD trait and he is pretty positive and optimistic about everything, even when things haven’t gone according to plan sometimes.

O isn’t academic and I didn’t want for A*’s.  What I did want was for him to do his best and get some results for his confidence and self esteem, and know he is as good as anybody else he stands next to. It can be hard to do when you have a diagnosed label and statement in education, where support is a constant fight and struggle when you appear to be ok and ‘making progress’.

O got some GCSE’s, something I didn’t know if it was possible 14yrs ago.  I spent a lot of today going to the loo to hide my tears that kept pouring out.  Some from relief, some from pride, a lot from flash backs of the last 16yrs.  God, motherhood is hard sometimes.  Emotionally exhausting, lonely, rewarding, full of love and the best thing I have ever done, warts and all (and there are a lot of those).

The rest of the day has been lunching out and treats.

He has what he needs to go to the college he chose for the next 3yrs.  I’m not sure what his best is or could have been, all I know is that he got what he needed and I’m proud and happy for him.  I hope he feels that way too.

High 5 and all the love for my O x

This Boy Of Mine

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So, this boy (my eldest) has gone to Devon for a week.  All on his own.  It’s the first week of the holidays and O has gone on a week of food with Root CampRoot Camp is a hands on cookery course for 14-21yr olds.

The point of this post is mainly for me to note my pride for my first born.   He is a typical 15yr old boy that spends a lot of time in his (stinky) bedroom, playing games, listening to music and grunting at me occassionally, but……

I am SO proud of this boy.  As some may know, when O was 2yr (and a bit) he was placed on the Autistic Spectrum.  I was told he was a complex case, was unlikely to have friends or attend birthday parties and I should prepare myself to care for him forever.  The next advice was to go and read some books (the advice now, has improved I believe and has more support).  So I did.

O has just completed his two weeks work experience in the West End, interacting with strangers and traveling in rust hour on his own.  He did his placement in the kitchen’s of a restaurant as he is quite keen on cooking, which I’m hoping had a positive impact on him.  He is not an academic Autist.  He is now on a week away learning about food, with a group of strangers, in a place he is not familiar with – all his choice.

I cannot put in to words the concerns I have about the final year of G.C.S.E’s ahead.  How i feel about ‘the system’, as well as how I feel about myself and how I have dealt with this spectrum called Autism.  Though this is a whole other post.

For now, I admire him greatly, he and his ism’s frustrate me hugely.  But he’s been gone a few hours and I miss him but hope he has a great time (and behaves like any other 15yr old would (within reason 😁) )x


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