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Results Day

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resultsSo today was GCSE results day for many including my first born.  It has been full of mixed emotions to say the least.  I didn’t really know what to expect when he opened his envelope, and I’m not sure if he did either.  O’s facial expressions are hard to read at the best of times, a typical ASD trait and he is pretty positive and optimistic about everything, even when things haven’t gone according to plan sometimes.

O isn’t academic and I didn’t want for A*’s.  What I did want was for him to do his best and get some results for his confidence and self esteem, and know he is as good as anybody else he stands next to. It can be hard to do when you have a diagnosed label and statement in education, where support is a constant fight and struggle when you appear to be ok and ‘making progress’.

O got some GCSE’s, something I didn’t know if it was possible 14yrs ago.  I spent a lot of today going to the loo to hide my tears that kept pouring out.  Some from relief, some from pride, a lot from flash backs of the last 16yrs.  God, motherhood is hard sometimes.  Emotionally exhausting, lonely, rewarding, full of love and the best thing I have ever done, warts and all (and there are a lot of those).

The rest of the day has been lunching out and treats.

He has what he needs to go to the college he chose for the next 3yrs.  I’m not sure what his best is or could have been, all I know is that he got what he needed and I’m proud and happy for him.  I hope he feels that way too.

High 5 and all the love for my O x

The boy that changed my world.

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16years (and 9months) this boy has been in my life.  It’s been said so often, but I remember it so clearly, like it was yesterday.  I can feel all the emotions, and smell the smells of the day I met him.  Maybe because he was my first, maybe because it didn’t go as I wanted and ended up being a bit of a trauma and comedy scene at the same time.  To contradict that though, so much has happened in these 16years.  Changes I would never have wanted or planned but it has made us, us.

I have so many worries and fears about the next year (GCSE’s) that it’s made me a bit ill, but I should maybe take a breath and put it in to perspective.  Yes, qualifications are important but if you don’t make the grades for reasons other than being lazy it doesn’t mean your future will be terrible.  Some people can’t perform in exams, maybe that day turns out to be a bad day for you.  You still matter, and have something to offer and can make something amazing for yourself.

Oscar is one of a kind,  parenthood is life changing.  Having a child that is classed as ‘different’ is challenging, frustrating, exhausting and rewarding.

He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, I think it’s been harder for him than he’s let on,  and I will always fight for him.

He is a pretty special bean, happy birthday O and thank you for being you x

*Birthday celebration code is running on the shop until Sunday midnight.  Enter code OSCAR16 at checkout to receive 25% off your order.

Gro Company

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Danish brand Gro Company are one of our new additions this season and you’ll be able to see why.  Very wearable designs, made from great quality fabrics.  This season we love the quilted sporty sweat and pants.  They are super soft and look so cosy and snug.  The girls dresses are a hit and as for the pink Santa Christmas dress….speechless ♥

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This Boy Of Mine

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So, this boy (my eldest) has gone to Devon for a week.  All on his own.  It’s the first week of the holidays and O has gone on a week of food with Root CampRoot Camp is a hands on cookery course for 14-21yr olds.

The point of this post is mainly for me to note my pride for my first born.   He is a typical 15yr old boy that spends a lot of time in his (stinky) bedroom, playing games, listening to music and grunting at me occassionally, but……

I am SO proud of this boy.  As some may know, when O was 2yr (and a bit) he was placed on the Autistic Spectrum.  I was told he was a complex case, was unlikely to have friends or attend birthday parties and I should prepare myself to care for him forever.  The next advice was to go and read some books (the advice now, has improved I believe and has more support).  So I did.

O has just completed his two weeks work experience in the West End, interacting with strangers and traveling in rust hour on his own.  He did his placement in the kitchen’s of a restaurant as he is quite keen on cooking, which I’m hoping had a positive impact on him.  He is not an academic Autist.  He is now on a week away learning about food, with a group of strangers, in a place he is not familiar with – all his choice.

I cannot put in to words the concerns I have about the final year of G.C.S.E’s ahead.  How i feel about ‘the system’, as well as how I feel about myself and how I have dealt with this spectrum called Autism.  Though this is a whole other post.

For now, I admire him greatly, he and his ism’s frustrate me hugely.  But he’s been gone a few hours and I miss him but hope he has a great time (and behaves like any other 15yr old would (within reason 😁) )x

Coco & Wolf

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If you love a bit of Liberty print fabric, then you’ll love what Coco & Wolf do.  Lovely products hand made in the UK for girls and boys.  We love the bedding and cot sheets.

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Bean3 is 1 ♡

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wilbur&iToday this boy, Wilbur Grey turns 1 ♡  I have absolutely no idea where that year has gone, people always say it, but it’s true.

He is the sweetest boy and has the gentlest soul.  I’m wondering if he’ll stay that way, or become feistier to play with his brothers and defend himself a little.

It’s also Rudy’s 3rd birthday this weekend, the louder adventurer, so it’s full of presents, parties and cake.  Top of his birthday wish list was a skateboard!

We have 25% off most of the shop if you enter PARTY at checkout.  Ends Sunday midnight.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend whatever you do x

Made these vegan bars

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Super quick and super easy (perfect), I tried out these vegan protein bars today.

Screen Shot 2014-11-03 at 19.00.00They were really tasty, a good sweet hit.  I forgot to oil my muffin tray, so it stuck a bit.  But I’ll use the broken bits and crumbs as granola so no waste.

1 1/2cups quinoa flakes
1/4 cup ground flaxseeds
1/4 tsp ground nutmeg
1/4 tsp ground cinnamon
1/2 tsp ground ginger
1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
1/4 cup maple syrup
2 tbsp brown rice syrup
1/2 cup chopped apricots
1/2 cup chopped nuts

Mix all of the ingredients above, together in a bowl.  Then squash down in to a lightly oiled tin or muffin tray.  Place in the oven for 30minutes at 190°C until golden.  Once cool, cut in to rectangles if used a tin or just ease out the disc shapes from your muffin tray and eat.

recipe from It’s All Good by Gwyneth Paltrow

I hope you had a good Halloween weekend, we had some fun!

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I want this in my size too

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Sometimes you find something that you wish came in your size and not just your child’s.  This brand makes that kind of thing, Jules.  This unisex brand consists of staple pieces to layer and mix and match to get you through all seasons.  The colour palette of the collection also works really well mixed together in many combinations.  The brand is created by Jules, was inspired and came about after having her son Julien.

The clothes are made in Los Angeles where Jules is based and I can’t wait to get my hands on a couple of pieces for the boys.

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Screen Shot 2014-09-30 at 21.20.55Today this little boy, that’s now not so little and taller than me is 15.  15years old, how can that be.  He has changed so much in the last year, some of the things I’ve not been that comfortable with.  Like his voice breaking, he seems to grow inches at a time over night, that terrible fluff that grows on a boy’s top lip!  I have lots of guilt about spending enough time with him and worry about being able to give him the help he needs in the next couple of years for his GCSE’s with his Aspergers.  These things aside, he never ceases to surprise me in some way, he has a sweet soul, and quirks that make him comfortable.  It’s good to be original and be you.  Happy birthday my O x

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